Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Striving to Get from Stressed to Blessed

This morning has been a hodge-podge of feelings.  When I woke up this morning and looked in the mirror, I did a double take.  I looked so tired from being up during the night with our 17-month-old that I looked older than my age.  Let's put it this way, there isn't enough coffee in the world to take those "tired-lines" away that were on my face this morning.  Maybe Botox is in my future (never say never).  After getting the older kids off to school this morning, the youngest one finally decided to nap.  Only to be woken up by the workers doing foundation work on my house (completely need a whole new post for this one).  I guess the whole house being shaken didn't do well for her nap.  Anyway, I finally got her happy and watching Yo Gabba Gabba only to have the DirecTV guy show up early (he was supposed to be here yesterday) to upgrade our satellite which took away her TV for the next hour.  The day wasn't going well for her or myself.  Then we decided to look at pictures.  And it was these pictures that changed the way I have seen my whole morning/day/life.

The pictures were from the past eleven years (my husband and I will have been married for eleven years next week) and spanned five houses and three kids.  The pictures that were of my oldest (she is now eight) really made me think.  I cannot believe how fast time really flies.  I know that people say that all of the time, and some may actually stop and think about it.  Some people may not have time to stop and think.  This morning, I made time. 

In the past eight years, we have lived in four different houses, two towns, and had three kids.  Not once have I "slowed down" enough to fully appreciate my life.  I always mean to and even make plans to do it; went so far as to put it on my "to-do" list.  But I never get to "cross it off" because I am too busy and on to the next thing on my list.  Parents (and most adults) seem to be too stressed these days to stop and feel blessed for the life that they have. 

It seems to have become trendy to stress your way through life.  Stress to have kids, stress to have the perfect kids, stress to make your kids perfect, stress to make sure they are in the right play groups, stress to make sure they are in every activity available.  And that is just through kindergarten.  More stress is stacked on the older they get.  Then there is the the parent stress: stress to make sure your house is clean, stress to make sure your cars are big enough to hold all of the kids you stressed about having, stress about jobs never being "enough," stress about not having "enough."  It leads to stopping and asking yourself: "when is enough and is it ok for this to be enough?"

My point is, feel blessed for the children that you have (no matter what their perfections or imperfections are), feel blessed that they are healthy, feel blessed when they scream and cry because they don't want to go to their activity because they want to stay with you (one day they won't), feel blessed that your house is a mess (because it probably means you were spending your time with your kids instead of cleaning), feel blessed that you have a house to be a mess (some people don't), feel blessed to be thinking about your job because at least you have one, feel blessed to have a car (some people need one but don't have one), and most of all, feel blessed to have your life because it's the only one you are going to get and that makes it "enough."

I feel blessed for my "tired-lines" this morning because it means that I have kids that put them there, I am blessed for the foundation of my house being worked on because it means that I have a house, and I feel blessed that the DirecTV guy is upgrading my satellite because that means that I now have HD.....